So today was the day I was supposed to see Steven, he was supposed to be spending the night on the very couch I'm sitting on. I was kinda counting on this visit to be able to finally talk to a male about everything going on... but this plan fell through. Now I feel like I'm waiting on a text from Devin to hang out, this wont happen either. I feel so close to tears because I need that male support. I don't feel like I have it anymore. I used to go to Matty when things like this piled up, and I'm sure I still can... but with his schedule, its hard to catch him. I just need a hug from a guy... a supportive smile.... and the knowledge of knowing...He's there.
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