Day 140; May 30th, 2011: Back in Eugene

Today Mat and I drove back to Eugene.

Then Mat had choir practice so I went to that because Mat doesn't like me being in the apartment alone after the break in. 

We had Emily and Richard come over to play a few bored games.

The roommates joined in with Apples to Apples. 

It was good.

After everyone left,

Mat and I had a deep talk and it was good.

It was kind of a talk I've been waiting to have with him for a few years now.

Tomorrow: I'm working out and calling a few dance schools so I can get motivated again.

Day 139; May 29th, 2011: Going home

I had work this morning, and had a 5 week old cling to me.
His name is James.
He is so cute and sweet but he was super fussy today.
I'm counting down the hours till work is over 'cause I'm driving home with Mat today and my mom doesn't know.
It was her birthday yesterday, but I'm going to go there today after work.
Too bad counting down the hours is making work seem to take forever.
It doesn't help that I'm tired from the party last night either.
Blah,
its going to be a loooooooooooooooong day.

Day 138; May 28th, 2011: Happy birthday, Mom!

Today is my mother's birthday. And I'm surprising her tomorrow by showing up at the house. As for today though, I dyed my hair red and then went to a party with Mat. Yeah, that's literally all I did. Fun day.

Day 137; May 27th, 2011: That was eventful

So today was boring... until night time.

Mat went to go hang out with Emily, which was all fine and dandy. I stayed home and was talking to people online when I heard the living room door unlock. I knew Mat wouldn't be back this early and that our other two roommates were gone to Portland. I kept listening, and the person came in, turned on Mat's and my bathroom light and began to shut the bathroom door when my dog started barking. With this the person left. They also left the living room door open.

So yeah, someone broke into the apartment while I was home alone. I locked my bedroom door and called the cops. Within half an hour there were 10 cops around our apartment. They searched the apartment with a K9 and then interviewed me.

So yeah, that was eventful.

Day 136; May 26th, 2011: Well then...

So today, nothing exciting happened really. Mat, Richard, Emily and I went out after the Gospel Choir concert (which I didn't attend).
We went from Ihop to Shari's because of drama, which of course, followed us to Shari's. Go figure.
Mat and I didn't eat because I had made Chicken Alfredo back at home but Emily and Richard decided they were going to "kidnap" us. Which they failed at horribly.
Yeah, that was my day.

Day 135; May 25th, 2011: PICTURES

 Every time I see this chapstick I always think of Hannah because she LOVES this chapstick. You can apply it to both your upper and bottom lip at the same time. Its convenient and a time saver.
I just cleaned out my make up bag. I know you guys don't really care, but I'm greatly excited because all my make up finally fits in the bag without me having to force it. Also, I discovered that I'm slightly addicted to lip gloss/chapstick seeing as I have 22 varies kinds. That's not counting all my lip sticks and make up pallet lip glosses.

 I was thinking about curling my hair today, but when I put it up like this I thought a half pony would look cute and suffice AND wouldn't take as much work. Then I cleaned my room.

 I did my make up how I used to today too and I now remember why I don't usually: its crazy time consuming. Yeah it looks awesome but holy jeez.

 Then I started messing with the settings on my webcam and these pictures are what came of it.

 Back to normal.

This is just simply because I miss my lil sis, who is the person who has the other half of the heart.

Day 134; May 24th, 2011: So many things...

To all my friends who are graduating:
I keep reading that you aren't ready for high school to end, but trust me there's sooooooo much more to come. You all saw me last year and how freaked I was to be leaving, but the "big scary real world" isn't as bad as it seems. Yes, college doesn't shelter you as much as high school did, but its still amazing and you make a new name for yourself and finally get to work on what YOU want to do. So just breathe, and cherish the last few moments you have at CHS. and don't worry, you'll still see your high school friends if you really want to. :) <3 you guys and congrats! The big day is just around the corner.

To the friends who are entering their senior year:
Yeah, its a hard year but there are soooo many people that are there for you to help you out... if you let them. Don't think too much about the senior exhibition stuff because its only as hard as YOU make it to be. Choose something fun and that you'll enjoy doing for your senior exhibition and start work on it ASAP. The sooner you start it, the sooner you can get it done. And if you need help with anything, ask people. Even graduated people (like me), I'm sure that since they remember what it felt like; they'd be more than willing to help. Heck, I'll still help. Most importantly: this is your senior year so HAVE FUN!


On a more personal note:
I'm starting to wonder if I have an eating disorder. I haven't been eating like at all lately and when I do eat it is very very small portions. I drink a lot of tea and juice and what not but even the sight of food makes me full... No lie... I'm scared.

Day 133; May 23rd, 2011: Bye Bye Blonde

 So this was the last picture I took with blonde in my hair. I'm dying it brunette and then later I'll dye it red with blonde and brunette streaks. I'm excited because I'm tired of the blonde and the upkeep with it.

It feels good to be back to brunette.

Day 132; May 22nd, 2011: Eyyyyyyyyyyyyes and 23 bobby pins

 My eyes are honestly my favorite part of myself. No lie. I try to play them up as much as I can. They are so insanely blue but have that yellow ring around the center. It makes me smile. I guess my eye color is rare? Who knows.

 I didn't even edit my eye color in this picture, that is them naturally.

This hair style took 23 bobby pins. Its cute, but super difficult to do.

Day 131; May 21st, 2011: Bowling

I shall be in this bowling alley all day.

That is it.

I did drive the van today, 

but other than that the only thing going on today is:

bowling

Day 130; May 20th, 2011: Extra pretty or just a waste of time?

So because of yesterday, I decided to look extra pretty today just to see if there's any difference in how I feel.
There's not.
I just feel like I spent an extra hour on my hair and an extra 10 minutes on my make up.
Oh well, I've decided with my next pay check I'm dying my hair, I just don't know what color yet.
Tomorrow Mat and I are going to his bowling competition. Means that I'm getting up at 6 in the morning.... whoo...

Day 129; May 19th, 2011: Happy birthday Grandpa Olson {R.I.P}/ Why?

So today is my Grandpa Olson's birthday, he passed away when I was around four and I still miss him. I don't remember much about him, like key things: how he smelled, his voice or what he looked like when he smiled. But I do remember that one time when I was little, my grandpa was playing the organ and I went over and hit a few keys. Usually this would make my grandpa upset, but he just kept playing and let me sit there and hit random keys. This and me singing "I Love You" from Barney to him at his wake. These are the only memories I have of him, but yet... I miss him. Happy Birthday Grandpa Olson. R.I.P <3


     So I don't understand why when one moment I'm happy and then something is said and my mood crashes... why does the person that said something have to ask what's wrong. I hate it and that's honestly why I say "nothing". I wont tell someone what's wrong when THEY SHOULD KNOW 'cause its their fault.
      Everyone who really knows me knows that my self esteem is incredibly low. So this and my family are things that just hit below the belt on me and that's where I got hit today. I made a simple joke saying that I was pretty, and then he said "haha, no your not". Yeah, I'm done. I just want to lock myself in my room till I have work on Sunday.

Day 128; May 18th, 2011: Strawberries, child care and caprisun.

 So I think people underestimate my addiction to strawberries. I went and got a HUGE thing of them and have been eating them about 9 in a sitting. This addiction is also odd because I used to hate strawberries. Now as long as I don't look at them for a long period of time (because the look of them kinda freaks me out) I love them.

I also have work today, 

Cormack and I will continue building on the castle.

And to top it off: my fridge is FILLED with Caprisuns. :D No soda for this girl

Day 127; May 17th, 2011: Day off

Today was my day off of work so I cashed in all of my pay checks and went grocery shopping. Now I'm practically broke again, but next month I'll get even more money which will be nice.
I'm starting to be able to breathe easier again and I like it.
Hopefully it can stay this way though.
I keep getting asked if I regret re-signing my lease and I don't. I have great jobs with great pay, I'm looking into dance classes and UNLV accepted my refund.
Things are starting to look up again.

Day 126; May 16th, 2011: Snuggles and planning

 Today I went to work and then got home and snuggled with my dog.

Then, as I promised... once the pepsi was gone... I made this work out plan

Day 125; May 15th, 2011: work work work

Today I went to work... came home... and slept.
Then Mat and I went and saw the movie Bridesmaid..
now I'm back in bed. Planning on starting to work out again.
I know I'm not fat, but I miss the muscle.

Day 124; May 14th, 2011: ChaCha, headache and plan

 I've had a headache since last night and its really bugging me today. I know that its because I haven't really been eating... so I've tried today but since I haven't been eating... eating is hard.
I just ate some eggs so I can get the protein and that's helped my headache a lot... it just sucks because I'm trying to lose some weight before I start working out again.
Today my mom deposited my paycheck, and I've been working on ChaCha all day and am only 10 bucks away from getting paid tomorrow. I just have to earn those 10 bucks before midnight. Wish me luck.

I also have this plan.
I've decided that after this bottle of Wild Cherry Pepsi is gone from the fridge... I'll stop drinking soda till I get my abs back. I'll also start working out on a daily basis again.
But first the temptation of Wild Cherry Pepsi HAS to be out of the fridge.

I have work tomorrow, but I feel like I'll be up late until I earn that 150 dollars from ChaCha. 
Just 9.82 left to earn (that's just 491 questions... ugh)

Day 123; May 13th, 2011: Work work work and then play play play

 So this morning I had work with JulieAnn. It was fun. It was my first day on the real job with her rather than just checking in or taking the kids to lunch. I helped her polish some things and I didn't think about wearing gloves so my hands look crazy tan compared to the rest of my skin. At least if that's what I'm doing Monday as well... I know to wear gloves.
I also stopped by WUMC (Wesley United Methodist Church) {A.K.A my other job} to ask about my paycheck and change my address... came to find out... they had my mom's address all along.
At least I know where my check is and that she can deposit it for me.

After all of that I went to the bowling alley with Mat for a little bit to watch him practice some more. I'm still upset that I'm not going with him Sunday, but I have to get over it.
Once Mat and I got back to the apartment and he ate and left, I finished decorating my room and then left. I went and saw the play that Mat, Dane, Matt, and Sarah are in and that Zack, Jesse and Chris are working. Met up with Jessie there and we sat together.
Then I went with Mat to the cast party. We all went for pizza where Mat's and my other friend Zach works. Then came home and slept. Phew.

Day 122: May 12th, 2011: Trying to embrace the hair

So yeah, I'm still trying to embrace the bangs. I'm a little upset still just because I WAS trying to grow them out. I know I can't be too upset because it was an accident but still.
Went with Mat and watched him bowl today. He has a comp this Sunday and it'll be the first one in a loooooooong time I wont be going with him to. I feel horrible but I have work.
Chris is going with him, and I'm jealous... I shouldn't be... but I am.
I don't know what's up with me lately... I get jealous over the smallest things, I don't really want to eat... and I don't feel pretty enough for anything.
I miss having a boyfriend, at least I know that much.

Day 121: May 11th, 2011: Before and after

 Before hair and make up

 After hair and make up




Before work

 After work

Before hair

 After hair

Yeah, so a kid accidentally took a chunk out of my hair at work today. So I just cut them into bangs.