Day 274; October 12th, 2011: Mornings like this

(So this picture was taken after dress rehearsal last night. It's my make up for the ending of the play.)

Its mornings like this that I really wish I woke up next to someone. I dunno why, I just woke up with the feeling of Adam's arms around me and I started to cry. Its been more than 2 years since I last saw him and my heart still aches.
After I stopped crying I felt arms around me again... different arms... arms that seemed weaker than Adam's, but aren't... they're still just as strong but just hold on lighter. With this I thought of all the times his arms were around me while we were laying and I started to cry again.
While I was crying I felt arms again... big arms... strong arms... arms that were ready to fight. I knew right away they were Devin's. I started thinking of the last time I saw Devin and again, the tears came.
Before I could even breathe again I felt arms... big arms... strong arms... nervous arms... Gabe's. And I started to cry.