Day 170; June 30th, 2011: Posting now, so I can sleep all day

We just dropped Ali off at the airport. 

I plan to sleep all day, so I'm just going to post now. 

Night/morning readers.

P.S. Devin is talking to me again after I told him off. Yay.

Day 169; June 29th, 2011: Pictures and an all nighter

Tonight we're pulling an all nighter since Ali has to be at the airport at 4ish in the morning.
We went and walked around downtown.

Then night was made: mat, Ali and I drove by a couple getting a little cozy in their car in the parking lot. they followed us for a bit. guess that guy's night was ruined... in the meantime the 3 of us went at got pie.

Day 168; June 28th, 2011: Tears

So today we took Ali to the store in Gateway that has a bunch of Hello Kitty stuff, and we also went to the post office so she could mail her bowling balls back to Mississippi.
While at the post office I flat out told Mat that I would do anything to be with Devin. I guess he text Devin and they got in a huge fight. Mat said I wasn't allowed to know, which means it was about me.

With all that on top of the fact that I feel like though every guy thinks I'm too good for them, I'm not good enough to even deserve a chance with any of them. None of the guys I like will date me because I'm "too good for them" or they're afraid to hurt me. Its total BS.
So then when I heard that Devin and Mat were fighting about me... I literally got in my car and drove off. I went to the park near Valley River Center. I sat on the closest bench and cried.
Mat and Ali came and found me...
I cried some more...
then we went and got pizza.

Day 167; June 27th, 2011: Movie night.

So we literally just watched movies all day.
Its getting boring again.
Bleh.

Day 166; June 26th, 2011: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand back in Eugene.

So we're back in Eugene. 

Mat had a meeting. 

Ali and I did nothing.

That's literally all.

Day 165; June 25th, 2011: Ashland

 Today Mat and I took Ali to Ashland.
We walked A LOT because I wanted to find the place that my Aunt Marcy re-opened her shop: Rare Earth.
We found it.

Then when we got back home, I wanted to do some editing.

Day 164; June 24th, 2011: Pit Stop and ballroom

Today was AWESOME! I got Zack and Mat and of course Ali. We went and rotated my tires... whoo exciting. Then we all went to Bobbio's for lunch. PIZZA!!!! After that I dropped Zack off at work and made Ali and Mat come with me to get my oil changed. There was a cute guy named Phil, Mat made me give him my number. 

Then we dropped Mat off at his house, and he said he wasn't going to go to the ballroom. K, whatever.

Ali and I returned cans and then went back home, ate Panda Express and got pretty. 

After a bit: I checked my phone and then my day was practically made; Gabe was going to come to the ballroom!

We all went to the ballroom, and just as I had guessed: Mat showed up. He was going to try to surprise Ali. 

I got Gabe to dance with me some and Mat and I did East Coast to a West Coast song. Dang, we were sweaty and tired after that. I also danced with Steve AND my mom came to see me dance.
I didn't think the night could get better, but it did:

After the ballroom Gabe, Mat, Ali and I went to Dairy Queen to get desert. Gabe paid for mine. Then we went back to my house. Ali and Mat went inside while Gabe and I stood outside. 

The conversation went like this:
*my phone lights up*

Gabe: "who is it?"

Me: "Ali"

Gabe: "why is she texting you rather than just coming out here?"

Me: " 'cause she wants me to go through with a dare that her and I have going but I can't"

Gabe: "so there's a dare, and it involves me. you're not going to go through with it and you're not going to tell me either. Right?"

Me: " right"

Gabe: " well I need to go inside"

He stood up and so I stood up and picked up all my stuff. He grabbed my hand so I set all my stuff back down. I got pulled into a hug..........

lets just say... 

I had a great night because I don't wanna jinx my hopes by telling the world that I got a kiss...

oops.

;)

Day 163; June 23rd, 2011: Bear Creek

So today, I drove out to Gold Hill to get Gabe. He had promised to take Ali and I out on a "date" so we could be treated how we are supposed to be.
Zack joined.... >.>
While there, Mat and I got in an argument over the phone and Gabe noticed. Gabe took my phone and put it out of reach. That's one reason why I like him so much.
When I finally got my phone back, Mat wanted me to come pick him up... fine.
So Ali, Zack, Gabe, Mat and I all went to Bear Creek park for a little before Zack had to go to work and Gabe had to go back home.
Mat and Ali kinda vanished which was fine. I just hung out with Zack and Gabe.
Once we dropped Zack off at work and Gabe off at home... I asked Mat if he just wants to go run errands with Ali and I. He said whatever.
I guess something happened while I went to go get grocery money and Mat kinda ran off. Ali and I chased him, but we had no luck. Her and I went shopping and ate dinner. We then text Mat to see if he was willing to talk. I guess I wasn't ready because I text my friend Matt to come get me and take me to ice cream. After I got back to where Ali and Mat were, I was ready to talk.
Mat, Ali and I went to Sonic and sorted stuff out. Then we went back to my house to finish talking. Jeez.
I just got back from dropping Mat off at home.

Day 162; June 22nd, 2011: Back in the RV

So I'm back at home. Mat and I are fighting more than ever because he thinks I said some things I haven't said.
Ali doesn't want to be around him so she's staying at my mom's with me. Which is fine, I think Mat needs to realize what he's doing. 'cause I'm tired of him blaming all this on me when I'm not doing anything.
I got to see Jackie today. And Auni and baby Gabriella stopped by. Then Gabe stopped by after work. It was great to see some of my actual friends who stick with me and don't make me feel like crap.
Well RV, I'm back... what do you have in store for Miss Ali and I?

Day 161; June 21st, 2011: Rock slides, Florence, Heceta Light House and Mo's

Today started off rocky so it wasn't expected to get better, but I still tried. I took everyone to the Rock Slides at Triangle Lake. Its where Adam and I would go anytime I visited Oregon and I thought the guys would enjoy it. Welp, they did but Mat and I got in a huge fight.... joy. 

After that, we drove to Florence and ate at Mo's. It was good, but not as enjoyable since sitting at the table was beyond awkward.
Then I took everyone up to the light house. That was fun. We kinda split off: Ali and I. Zack and Mat.
I told Ali the ever so famous story of the haunted light house, and she was on edge.
The story is:

"One of the more famous haunted lighthouse legends is about the ghost of an older mother that roams the Heceta Head Lighthouse in Florence. The Lady in Gray, or Rue as she is now known, was the wife of an assistant light keeper in the 1890s. It is said that her young daughter drowned in the local estuary or the ocean and, in despair, the mother committed suicide. The location of the young girl's grave is not exactly known, but the headstone supposedly resides somewhere in the vegetation surrounding the lighthouse. Rue now haunts the Heceta Head Light, ever searching for her long-lost daughter.

Rue has been spotted and heard many times by people who have been up to the light to work on it. In the 1970s, a worker, cleaning windows, came face-to-face with the ghost and fled in terror. So frightened, he said that he would only return to work if he didn't have to return to the attic. At one point, he broke an attic window from the outside of the building, but refused to go in to clean it up. That night, the couple who lived there at the time, reported hearing scraping sounds upstairs. After going up to investigate, they found small shards of glass all swept up and placed in a neat little pile in the corner of the room.

Since then, the caretaker's house has been turned into a cozy bed and breakfast, but the haunted lighthouse stories remain a present part of it's intrigue. Rue walks the premises to this day. Guests have reported having some friendly encounters with the Lady in Gray."

I love that story.

Day 160; June 20th, 2011: Mr. Popper's Penguins

Today, we kinda did nothing. We hung around the apartment and wrestled a lot.
We took Ali and Zack to Voo Doo for breakfast and then came back to the apartment. 
We went to dinner and saw Mr. Popper's Penguins. But other than that its been a pretty relaxing day.
Tomorrow: we go to Florence.

Day 159; June 19th, 2011: Zack.

So early this morning (like 2 in the morning), Ali decided that she needs to do laundry. Well, some of Mat's clothes were in there. Needless to say, we put some of his clothes on.
Then today, Ali and I went to my work. Funny thing is: it was one of the EASIEST days ever. We only had like three kids. Go figure. The day we have more than enough helping hands, we have three kids. Jeez.
While at work, I got a text from Zack asking about his cookies... when Ali and I got back to the apartment... there was a Zack in the chair.
I think this is going to make for an interesting couple of days.
I'm staying in my room, Ali is taking over Mat's room and the guys have the living room.
I wish the apartment luck!

Day 158; June 18th, 2011: Can you say score?

Today was a girls day.

Mat left to go back home and pick up Zack so he can see Eugene.

Ali and I went shopping (yes, some more) and we ended up at St. Vincent DePaul's. There was a 

HUGE 

wedding dress there and when I took it off the rack to show Ali.... the hanger snapped.

We laughed soooooo incredibly hard.

I got two pairs of shoes though, including a pair of Coach tennis shoes. Can you say score?

Then we had to go get shoe laces....

All in all, it was a great day with Miss Ali.

Day 157; June 17th, 2011: Shopping

So last night Mat both got mad and excited about Ali being here. It was kinda humorous in a not so funny way.

I'm not really sure what to think or do right now because I know they want to spend time together but I know some things that should make it so I step in the middle. 

Well, today we're just going to kinda run around I guess. We're going to go to the Valley River Center, the movies and the giant O! 

It should be a fun day.

Day 156; June 16th, 2011: Back in Eugene.

So I'm back in Eugene.
I go pick up Ali from the air port in a few hours so we can surprise Mat. He doesn't think she's getting here till the 19th.
I dunno how he's going to react.
He'll either be beyond happy,
or get upset....

Guess, we'll see.

Day 155; June 15th, 2011: Day at home

      Today I broke down so Mat came and got me, I went to his house and watched a movie.
I broke down because it felt like no one was there for me.
My mom has her boyfriend, my dad has his girlfriend and my friends weren't wanting to hang with me.
I thought I needed to be home, but now all I need is a hug.

Day 154; June 14th, 2011: Applegate

So as you can see: Mat, Zack, Lil' B and I all piled into the van with Mat's parents and went up to Applegate Lake.

Those 3 jumped off the bridge while I just took some pictures.
Last night Mat and I went and kinda stole Bridgett by smooth talking her dad so there was a sleep over of Bridgett, Mat and I. It was kinda fun. I didn't realize how much I actually missed Lil' B.




My goal here soon is to actually have something to write about.

Day 153; June 13th, 2011: Tanning and hiking.

 So I was out tanning today, it felt so good. 10 minutes on each side and even cuter: my dog laid there with me.
<3

After tanning: Mat, Zack and I went and hiked Upper Table Rock. It was harder than it used to be because I don't dance anymore. We also stayed up there waaay too long so all of us are really burnt. Kinda sucks.

Day 152; June 12th, 2011: Going home

 Finally I'm home. It feels so good. It was an awkward car ride with Mat, but I'm home. I can have a little time to relax. My mom is at work right now, but hopefully I get the chance to talk to her soon.

I had work this morning, and we left Eugene after that.

Day 151; June 11th, 2011: Haggard

I haven't slept well in a few days, Mat and I have been fighting and it sucks. I'm so tired, and emotionally drained. Its making me mad, and sad... and I just can't wait to go home tomorrow. I just want to be able to talk to my mom and finally get a lot off my chest. I'm so tired of holding it all it. Its times like these that I wish I had strong arms to run to... then maybe I wouldn't look so... so...

Haggard.

Day 150; June 10th, 2011: So today/ new internship posts

I didn't really do anything today.

Today was boring.

That is all.

ALSO NEW INTERN POST!! 

GO, READ, VOTE!! 

It helps me out a ton!

Justin Beiber and Selena Gomes

Bye bye Brett

Does the DJ have us falling in love?

Would we survive if the lights went out?

Want to unlock your car? There's an app for that!

"One fish Two fish Red fish Blue fish!"     
—        Dr. Seuss

Inside Vs. Out

Day 149; June 9th, 2011: Personal day

So I wrote a note to Mat last night explaining a lot that went on.
So today he gave me a personal day.
I baked and cooked and just kinda...
relaxed.
I printed out a lot of pictures so I can put them on my other door and I started an art project.
All in all, its been an okay day.
As best as can be expected at least.

Day 148; June 8th, 2011: I don't think this day could get worse.

So today was horrible:

• My shoulder and knee hurt.
• Its my last Wednesday with the kids
• My dogs personal business is acting up.
• I set off the smoke alarms twice
• Mat and I are arguing and now not talking
• Adam's wife called me to tell me that Adam passed away in a car crash.

Whoo... could today get any worse?

Day 147; June 7th, 2011: Can't I just stay in bed?

 So today I had work and now that I'm home from work... I just want to sleep. I helped Julie today with some errands.
I think I helped too much because my shoulder is acting up and it legitimate-ly hurts. I'm so mad about it.

Devin and I are still talking, which is nice. I miss him.

Day 146; June 6th, 2011: Mat's family

So Mat's mom, aunt and grandma is here today. They brought up some of Mat's exercise equipment.
The five of us went to Denny's for breakfast and then we took them to Voo Doo doughnuts.

We had Richard and Emily come over and we "played" Apples To Apples. Yeah, it wasn't that eventful.

Day 145; June 5th, 2011: kids kids kids.

 

 

 

Work today was.... stressful. Two fussy babies, one kid fell off the slide, one kid hit his head... then the baby swing broke with a baby in it, one baby threw up and fell forward hitting his head on the table. And I get to do all of this by myself next weekend. Goodness gracious. Mat slept all day... so yeah, its a boring/stressful day.

Day 144; June 4th, 2011: Ready to battle the day

So I'm excited because I can finally curl my hair and not have the curls just fall out. <3
Also this week is either going to go by fast, or really slow. Hopefully fast because Ali gets here on the 16th! But Mat thinks she's not getting here till the 19th, hehe, we're mean.
I have work Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday.
Phew.
And Devin and I are talking again so this kinda makes my life.
Reynolds left today, but I'm still ready to battle the day.

Day 143; June 3rd, 2011: Seeing Red

 So today I'm adding streaks to my red hair

 and I finally feel pretty

and I can smile.

Also, Reynolds is here which means Mat is in my bed. Hmmm... kinda sucks because all I want to do is cuddle with someone. Ugh.
I'm just happy Reynolds is here. :)
Also saw the wonderous Ms. Jesseca Knorr.
Its been a great night.

Day 142: June 2nd, 2011: U.G.L.Y?

Today my self esteem is so far down its silly...

New goal: get better at this feeling pretty thing.

Day 141; June 1st, 2011: Remembering

So today is a harder day for me than what I would have liked.
Yesterday Mat actually asked me about Devin and it was hard because Devin hasn't been talking to me. I don't know where he is, or how he's doing. I just figure he's done talking to me and he's at the job corp stuff.






I just figure, stick with Bridgett's and my New Year's resolution:
" Always jump and but rarely fall. Balls to the wall and leave the past in the past, never look back. Don't regret what you did and don't regret the outcome." I think its the best new years resolution I've ever made."