Today, er.. I guess just lately, I've been thinking about Adam a lot. I don't regret what him and I had for those two years, but I'm kinda of sad that I experienced love at such a young age. I miss him, I'm not going to lie. I miss the late night phone calls, the text, and how he could and would get me to smile no matter what. I often wish I could go back in time and just pause on some of the days with him. What would I change? What would I want to last forever now that I know it doesn't? I'll be honest: I thought him and I would last forever. We had dreams and goals. We knew each of us had lives apart from each other, but we talked that we wanted each other to be part of the other's life. I'm only sad I experienced such an amazing, honest, faithful love at a young age because now I know what true love feels like. I'm not a young teenage girl who thinks I know what love is so I go around saying I love every guy I date. No, I really know what love is... and its amazing. Sometimes I want to text or message Adam, maybe even send him a letter... but I don't have the guts 'cause I know he wont answer, and I know that will break my heart again. So, though I doubt my hero, my sunshine, my rock, my support, my superman still reads everything that I write... I will say this just in case:
Adam Jarret Hathaway, I miss you dearly. I still have a deep love for you, but I do hope you are happy with what ever you have going on in your life. I really hope to hear from you soon, and that we can be friends. Please?
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