Dad-
You say you want to be treated with the respect you deserve... well so do I. I'm 19 and no longer in need of a person telling what to do. I deserve respect as well. I know you want to keep your "little girl" but I haven't been there in a long time.
Mom and I didn't exclude you, dad. We did it all for you so you wouldn't have to worry. Time isn't all that mom and I have put into all of this, its been a lot on ALL of us.
Am I appreciative of all you've done: of course an no one can replace you or top you in my heart but I would be lying if I said I've forgive you for the things we've been through.
Nothing is fair dad, and I know that but I also know that I don''t have to sit there like a lost puppy when I feel like I'm being emotionally attacked. I know you won't like any of this but I've grown up dad, and its not my fault nor is it going to stop. I have a voice and I have my opinions. I deserve to express them. Just like when I say I can't handle anymore (because of my disorder), I deserve to have a break.
None of this has to do with Mom, her opinions are hers and mine are mine. Do I wish we could go back to the days where you were my best friend and I idolized you: of course but way to much has happened since then.
Don't for one second think that I'm not appreciative or grateful because I am. I wouldn't be where I am today without you and mom. But I'm done sitting and listening to things be said that hurt me nor am I going to argue a pointless fight.
I do stand tall dad, I have for years. I've stood on my own two feet for a bit too. For example: I was totally by myself in Vegas. Sissy didn't help me, hell, she NEVER even called me. But I survived.
I don't ant to fight, dad, but I'm done of everyone, including you, talking down to me.
Always,
Carly
On a happier note: Josh and I had a visitor tonight;
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