Day 85; April 5th, 2011: You know... I used to be a daddy's girl..

I've had a pretty good day. I went and got Dutch Bros. blended snickers, called around to some dance studios and got money back. Called my mom and told her she should come up here for her birthday and talked to the guy I like and want to be with (Devin). All this was great, I also found an eye place that will take my insurance so I'm going to call them tomorrow.
Then of course my dad had to call... it honestly seems like he can't let me have a good day.
You know... I used to be a daddy's girl through and through. He could do no wrong in my eyes when I was younger, but now I just see him as a jerk and a bully. I don't care about things going on between him and my mom but it seems he insists on putting me in the middle of it all. My dad used to be my hero, the guy that protected me... but ever since I was 12 his light has been dimming... and now its almost out. He has no respect for me, and yet he demands that I respect him. I honestly used to be a daddy's girl, but all those happy memories with him are slowly fading away to nothing. All I seem to remember now is him always working and me going to baby sitters, or him choosing his girlfriends over me... and now all I remember is fights. I don't like hesitating to pick up my phone when my dad calls, that's not how it should be... but its how it is.