Day 316; November 23rd, 2011: No regrets.

So I gave this letter to the guy that I would kinda like to be with:
"I know this topic is beyond tiresome and talked about way too much... and I know me writing a note is ridiculous but I don't know how else to do this.
Its obvious that I still like you... I'm not sure if you still feel the same, as much as I hope you do. This note thing isn't me trying to talk you into anything, its honestly just me finally saying what's on my mind. So please, don't think of this as anything more than that.
I know there's a ton of reasons we aren't/haven't dated... and some of them just don't make sense...
As you often say, you're "rude, crude and tattooed" but when I think about it... you're rarely rude to me, I don't care that you're crude and you don't have that many tattoos... nor does that even factor since I like tattoos.
I haven't heard you say it but if you even think you're not good for me or that I'm too good for you... I have to argue that because I'm not too good for anyone and if you weren't good for me, why do you make me smile so much... and why do I actually miss you?
I know the fact that I live in Eugene is a huge deal but I would do my best to come home to the Valley as much as I could. And I'll be here for about two and a half weeks for Christmas/New Years.
Then there is the fear that one of us will get hurt... I know for me... I'd only get hurt if we weren't friends anymore. I would do my best to not hurt you. There's no way to know if someone would get hurt though unless we give it a chance.
That's all I really want is a chance. Even if it is for those two and a half weeks that I'm here in December or at any other time.
I'd be willing to work for this. I know it probably wont happen, and as long as we're still friends, I don't really care... as much as I'd love the chance to be with you... I know you're friendship is more important to me.
I'm not going to lie... the night you kissed me is by far one of my favorite memories. If that's all it ends up being... that's fine. I just need to know you know how I feel about the situation.
I'm not trying to force you into a relationship nor am I trying to talk you into anything. I just wanted to show you that I'd be willing to do pretty much anything for just a chance to be with you.
-Carly

P.S. I know I'm no Harley Quinn or anything but I do care. I think if you gave me the chance I might surprise you."
I gave it to him, and I have no regrets.

All packed for California. Leave as soon as my dad comes to get me. I also have my Ipod and writing.
I don't get the best cell phone reception in California, so if I don't answer your call or text right away... that be why. I'll try to stay in one place long enough to answer everything I have on my phone... but no promises.
If I don't get reception: Have a great Thanksgiving everyone!
I'm thankful for my friends and family and everyone who helps me get through my life. I'm also thankful for everything I have in life, and everything that has yet to come. I can only imagine what's next in my life... and I'm super excited.
I'll be back in the Valley on Friday, and I'll be at the ballroom that night. Hope to see everyone!