Day 200; July 30th, 2011: Coffee, work, giggle fits and realizations.

 So today I got up and wasn't in a good mood... notice the sarcastic smile pictured here. You see this guy that likes me, Aaron, was texting me all night last night until about 3 in the morning. Yeah, I finally just shut my phone off. Woke up and turned it back on: 27 text messages from him saying how he misses me and wants to see me. Using all the lovely names of "baby", "hunny" and "sweetie"... 'cause we all know how much I love those coming from guys I'm not dating after a guy forgot my name.

Anyway, I was determined to still have a good day even though this guy had already made me so mad... so I went and got Dutch Bros. before I went to work for Julie Ann.
I missed my Dutch men. They always know how to put a smile on my face and make things better.
Anyway, then I went to work. It was the day to take Julie Ann to Emerald Gallery. So yeah, I got to draw this lovely creation during work while she just wrote. I also looked at all the amazing painting that were there. I must say, I have a favorite place in Eugene now and I get paid to go there on Saturdays every once in awhile.
Also, Julie Ann and I finally had some time to get to know each other and she made my heart so much lighter by saying I was an inspiration to her. I almost started crying and wanted to say that if one of us was inspiring the other that she has it backwards.

Then I got home and saw this. Now people who know me know my past with Devin. The first guy I fell in love with... the first guy I ever told that I love him and the first guy who ever broke my heart. So, I'm thinking that my friends are probably like "oh no, Carly's probably heart broken" because most know that Devin and I were talking a lot lately and that I was missing him like crazy but you know what... since the last time I saw him...  I've finally gotten over him. I realized that he's just a liar and a guy who breaks promises and just isn't worth my time. Heck, I even "liked" this relationship change with a huge smile on my face. He'll always hold a small place in my heart (I mean, he was my friend before we dated), but I don't need to be with jerks anymore. Though I still don't feel like I deserve better, I'm starting to realize that if I just trust that there is an ultimate plan set out for me... that things will fall where they should. Yes, I do have hopes and wishes... and we all know that, but something different about this one: I've already told the guy I like him.

Now since I've been home... I felt something crawling on my toe... and if you've been reading my blogs you would know that ladybugs are everywhere around me lately... so you guessed it: I looked down on my toe and there was a ladybug. I got it onto my hand, it crawled around a little bit before it flew off of my hand. You know... after the giggle fit about Devin... I couldn't ask for a better day. Or at least... very few things could make it better.