Day 189; July 19th, 2011: Writing, drawing and figuring stuff out.

 So today I am a little on the hyper side since all I've had thus far is coffee with Bailey's Irish Cream coffee creamer in it. I'm going a little nuts and am very fidget-y so I decided to draw. I drew a rose and a butterfly... then I drew just some random things. But then I randomly decided I wanted to write: hence why I'm here. So I've discovered that the reason my self esteem has been so low lately is because I haven't had a reason to feel pretty. The other day I finally told the guy that I like that I like him (wow, that's confusing) and I dunno... I feel a little more confident and today I actually like my make up and hair. So that's an improvement.

Though this fact doesn't make me any less hyper. Right now I'm just figuring some stuff out and if you want to read it you're going to have to go to: http://outfortheworld.blogspot.com/2011/07/reflection.html
'cause I don't feel like I should post the same thing twice since if I do have readers, I don't think they would wanna read the same thing twice

As for the plans of the day: I'm going to dinner with my mom so I can finish talking to her about college plans since my dad - of course- wont hear me out. I didn't really expect him to, but you know, I still gotta have home in the guy since at one point... we were best friends.
Then after dinner I'm going to go hang out with a childhood friend who drew an amazing picture for me. I can't wait to see it.
I'm hoping this is the start of the uphill climb... with realizing that though I want the support of someone, I know I can do it alone... as much as I don't want to.
Hope everyone else out there had a good/reflective day.